previously:
i laid there on the coach, crying nonstop,until the door was open wide. I wiped my tears quickly, and walked to the door, i saw 3ziz, i ran to him and hugged him tightly, i started crying again, i kept sobbing on his chest, i don't know how i'm going to survive without him, without his soft kisses, without his morning and night messages, without him telling me to change my outfit because its short, or without him telling me to not go out with my friends because he is taking me out. How can i forget his love and treat him like a brother, he is always different, he is to me like a mother and father, best friend , soulmate, husband, boyfriend , love, he is my life. He was always there, when i'm happy or depressed. How can i forget someone who gave me a lot to remember.Most of my clothes and accessories was from him or i bought it with him.Every single decision i made was discussed with him, he was always here for me helping me and trying to give me hope.
as i said those words i drove off fast to the shaliah. I was crying my heart out like if there was no tomorrow.
i arrived to the shaliah i parked my car in the parking lot and entered the shaliah. i laid on the couch and sat there doing nothing except for crying.
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i laid there on the coach, crying nonstop,until the door was open wide. I wiped my tears quickly, and walked to the door, i saw 3ziz, i ran to him and hugged him tightly, i started crying again, i kept sobbing on his chest, i don't know how i'm going to survive without him, without his soft kisses, without his morning and night messages, without him telling me to change my outfit because its short, or without him telling me to not go out with my friends because he is taking me out. How can i forget his love and treat him like a brother, he is always different, he is to me like a mother and father, best friend , soulmate, husband, boyfriend , love, he is my life. He was always there, when i'm happy or depressed. How can i forget someone who gave me a lot to remember.Most of my clothes and accessories was from him or i bought it with him.Every single decision i made was discussed with him, he was always here for me helping me and trying to give me hope.
me: 3zi-zz, don't leave me alone please!, i love you please don't leave me..
3ziz: Shh 7yati 5la9, i'm here i promise i will never leave you*his eyes was filled with tears*
i was still hugging him , every time he backed off i get closer and tightened my grip around him, i don't want to live a life without him being with me all the time, being my boss, my hero, my man.
We spent our day sitting on the couch and watching tv, every while a hot tear found it way on my cheeks, 3ziz tried to help me forget and make me laugh, actually i laughed but from inside i was angry, hurt and broken.
I was laying on the floor my head was on 3ziz's lap, i was afraid that he will leave me alone.
3ziz: Hmm
me: shfeek?
3ziz: i guess this is our last day together in our love..
me:*tears* yeah
3ziz: baby don't cry i promise i will always be with you, like your broth-
me: AHH 3ZIZZ DON'T CONTINUE, PLEASE STOP IT STOP IT!!*sobbing*
3ziz: this is reality, we must face it, my heart is broken into pieces but this is reality, we are not meant to be,i'm like brother to you!!
me: please stop it please*Breathing hardly*
3ziz: come here 7yati come
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me:.......
3ziz: what do you want for dinner?
me: nothing, actually not in the mood for eating
3ziz: no no baby you must eat..
me: i said mali 5lg
3ziz: okaay bra7tch
me: i'm so sorry wallah bs i'm not in the mood for anything
3ziz: its okay.
me: so my 3ziz, this is our last day?*tears*
3ziz: Ll2sf* he started to tear*
me: no no no, no tears , i will be all the time with you okay?
3ziz: 97
3ziz started singing:
weda3eya ya a5r lailh tjm3na, wda3eya, weda3eya a3z elnas wda3na, weda3eya, lailh w ya 3saha t3od lailh, 3sa allah y9br elmw3ood.....
he couldn't continue his voice was shaky, tears were falling on his cheeks making it way to fall on my shoulders.
i couldn't help but i cried with him, it was the first time i see him crying or broken or that weak, he was always hyper, funny and he always manage to keep other people smile and laugh
3ziz POV:
i love her!!! i dont know how i will survive without her, she is my all, i love her to death , i couldn't help it anymore , i let out my tears that was locked in my eyes..
Back to dana's POV:
The clock was strike 12:am , i got bit tired, i decided to sleep at the shaliah.
me: 3ziz i'm going to bed,goodnight..
3ziz: wait i'm coming with you
me: okay i will go change
i ran upstairs and got into my room, i slipped out of my outfit and took a quick shower, after that i put on my Pj's. After i was done 3ziz entered my room
3ziz: if you need anything i'm here..
me: thank you
And he left, i wanted to shout " stay with me" but all i said was silence i couldn't talk, actually still i didn't believe that was the last day for us....
i tucked my self in bed, i couldn't sleep, i was twisting every minutes i kept on thinking, flash backs attacked me, i couldn't help but i walked to the cupboard and got his 'Tomford' perfume, after that i headed back to my bed, i reached my bed, i sat cross-legs on the bed, i took the perfume and sprayed some of it on the bed, ah this smell, my fav. I put the perfume on the table next to me and laid back on the bed playing with my iPad.
3ziz's POV:
i couldn't sleeep, i was thinking of my new life, life that dana will be a sister to me, not my wife, not my soulmate, not my love , not my girlfriend anymore.
i let out a 'sigh'
i decide to take her scarf from my cupboard, i walked into my closet and got her scarf, i rapped it around my neck, breathing in the smell of her.
'i love you dana' i mumbled to my self. i couldn't help my self but i walked to dana's room uncontrollably, i entered her room without knocking the door, she wasn't sleeping, this was expected , since we both are broken now , how we will sleep tonight after what happened.
back to dana's POV:
i was about to get out and head to his room but he was faster than me and he came first,
3ziz: Hmm i couldn't sleep, can i stay with you or sleep here*sigh*
Me: sure
i felt the pain in his voice, i couldn't tell him to back off or go away, because i needed him more than my self..
3ziz: I7m can i join? *pointing on my bed*
me: Aked
he came and tucked his self beside me, i noticed the scarf that was rapped around his neck
me: ohh my scarf, tdry iny knt adwrh*giggling*
3ziz: do you remember when you slept over at my place? you forgot it there so i kept it
me: 7lalkk
3ziz: oh look someone stollen my perfume, dude i was searching for this perfume since forever..
me: *giggles* i took it when we was at dubai last month, you forget it in my bag...
3ziz: 7lalch
he managed to keep my smile even when i'm broken from inside.
i cried, i couldn't help but cried ,he laid me and rapped his arms around me, like giving me aside hug, i dug my head into his chest, breathing his scent, sobbing strongly, his heart was beating rapidly, i hugged him and kept my self in the same position..
i knew that i lost him, and i think it was like forever..
His hand was over my head , playing with my hair , i felt soo safe with him.
Me: i'm going to sleep ok?
3ziz: fine
i was tired soo i dozed off to a deep sleep quickly..
3ziz's POV:
When she slept , i decide to sleep too. I stayed at my place, i just moved her up, until she was between my arms, i hugged her, and slept.
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